Day 91: Depression but I'm almost done

I'm almost done with being unemployed. I have this creeping fear that something is going to knock me out of my new job sooner than later but I can't give in to that. My depression has somehow been worse since I upped my medication. I'm not sure what it means besides I'm not really focused on any one aspect of my life. I have a general malaise on me that makes me not want to move. Today, I had the option to go swimming with my parents, go to a Lovecraft event at 2nd and Charles or try to get together with my cousin for something. I chose to do none of the above. I watched The Defenders on Netflix. And raped my diet all to hell. Not sure what I'm doing here, or when I will feel any better. This slow ass typing isn't helping me any.